Never in my life have I woken up so late. I hate waking up late. My back hurts and my head feels heavy and dizzy.
I need to study. Trials is in another three more weeks.
I NEED 8 As!
Ambilku dan bawa lari,
Kernaku takut tiada lagi.
- tri
I'm a sucker for pretty words. Doesn't matter what language.
I hope I meet someone like you.
She stomped out of the room.
Then she watched tv with my dad and brother and acted like the usual over-the-top sibling she never was. She's always like that with my brother. I know she's not a hypocrite, but it makes me angry to see her like one. I don't want her to be a hypocrite. I look up to her for not being one. This just pretty makes me take back everything I liked about her.
She always got along with my brother. I never do. Nowadays, my parents have been worrying about my brother a lot. All they ever want to think or talk about is Syahman Syahman Syahman. My sister was right. They really are thinking about him too much until he's neglecting the rest of us.
Well except for my sister, Shasha. She's been having slight problems at school with the pressure of SPM coming up. My parents think a lot about her too. Sometimes I feel a bit jealous that I'm forgotten like my two other elder sisters. Just because we try not to burden you, it doesn't mean we want to be left out of the family. But it's okay for them, they already have a family with kids and husbands. I stay at home with my parents. They're all I've got. Friends are friends, but why should I burden them pulak? They might not even feel comfortable talking with me anymore since I keep coming up to them talking about me me me. What kind of friend am I? ):
When we were fighting, I used 'attitude' as one of my attacking points. "Your bad attitude's what makes it so hard to study Sejarah," I started, "it doesn't have anything to do with being smart". I mean, everyone have their own weaknesses, right? If you had a strategy that was fit for yourself, then there really isn't anything to it. You just do, you don't complain. The truth is, you STILL have to sit for that exam and you STILL have to answer the same questions no matter how dumb you say you are. They wont favour you just cause you a slow pacer.
My sister reminded me about that one time my mum told us I had an attitude problem, which I didn't remember, and she said that I was the one with the problem. Pfft. If I was the one with attitude problems, why are mama and papa worrying about YOU so much?
She should really say all that to herself.
It's not my fault I know how to contain myself.
Don't you just hate it when your friends who go to boarding school don't call you when they come back? Especially when they've been back a week earlier, just because their uncle happens to run the school.
I am not going to let this ruin my school break.
My parents are off to Kelantan for two nights and I'm at home with my sister and brother. Sounds like we could have fun. I haven't made any plans yet (except for Monday which'll be movie night at Athiera's) but I'm sure I could find something to do. Maybe I could finally snuggle up in bed and read Along Came A Spider without having mummy remind me about trials?
Had a philosophy talk with Harris on the phone just now. About life being fair and unfair, corrupted minds, weed and being a sincere human being. I wish I could meet more people like him. Thanks for putting up with me, even when I end up contradicting myself.
I forgot to add this to my last post. Probably cause I was too excited to talk about Syahrul. Haha (: I recorded this with my webcam but I decided to remove the video because I don't look good today and I wanted to put the webcam on my guitar to get a better sound (and to remove that annoying beeping sound in the backgroud, how do you even remove that?).
This is Yuna's "Missing Star" which I tried my best to figure out and I was too lazy to figure out the plucking parts for the chorus so I strummed my way out of it HEHEH. When I listened to this, it really made me wish I had a voice like Norah Jones or Koko Kaina or anyone who remotely sound like them.
Sorry for the bad voice and quality aaand guitar playing.Thank you for listening.
Science didn't come easy. It would've been easy if I actually prepared earlier like I did for the other subjects. I think I might get a B or something. But it sucks to know you're going to get a B when you know this is something you should get an A for. It sucks even more if you're the kind of student who gets 90+ thrice in a row to see a big red 70 on your paper. That's twenty marks less. Twenty.
No, I'm not exaggerating.
Earlier that morning I told my dad to pick me up at 2PM because I thought that's when we'd finish, but we finished at 1:15PM so I walked home. I knew I'd end up bumping into Adi along the way, and I did. He ignored me. He is just so unbelievably stupid. It's not as if I'm you're girlfriend or anything. If things didn't work out, shut up lah. Don't be stupid, stupid.
I was feeling pretty cranky by the fact that he didn't say hi. But as I was passing through SD7 I heard two guys behind me laughing and joking. One of them said, "Ooh! A party! YEAHHH!" and I expected it to be Chinese guys cause one of them sounded so lala and the one who talked about parties had those slight Chinese slangs or maybe just an Indian who left his Indian slang for Chinese one, haha.
I turned around to see who it was and boy, was I in for a surprise: It was Syahrul.
Syahrul. Syahrul, Syahrul. Syahrul. The guy who thought I was a huge weirdo when I wanted to pass out a flier to him (which he didn't take, mind you. He walked right past me). This is the guy who's got the cutest little face and wears these geeky rectangle glasses pressed up his nose and this is the same guy who reminds me a lot like Harris. Especially the way he talks and laughs.
He was laughing when I turned around. Gosh, he had a great smile. He made another joke, chuckled with his friend (who really was Chinese), and flashed me this dazzling grin. I still remember what it looks like :D
I laughed back just to look friendly and I tried to think of something smart to say–just to make conversation. I failed. I walked quietly behind.
I liked the fact that he kept looking back just to make sure if I was still there.
I was.
Until I had to turn right.
I hope I get to walk home again tomorrow <3 Tomorrow's the end of my exams! HURRAH!
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place, wont you come with me
We could start again
Good morning everyone (: Friday was my brother's little engagement thing, right? So my sister took me to Peek A Boo to do our hair and since I didn't want anything fancy, I asked the hairdresser to blow it into a curl, instead of straight which was what I normally do since my hair's already curly.
I haven't washed my hair yet and I guess the curl loosened up and I ended up with...
And this was what it looked like last Friday
Since I'm not getting anything new for raya this year, I complained to my dad how I never got to wear anything nice and I was growing up and that mama got to dress up a lot when she was my age.
I understand the fact that my family can't exactly spend a lot due to my mum's teeny weeny wage (which is about RM3000, more or less) and that I should really stop burdening her with the things that I want. My dad doesn't get pensions because he didn't work for the government and something about the reason his company went into bankruptcy.
She told me she sewed her clothes when she was my age and she said that if I wanted to wear something new and fancy I'd have to sew it myself.
Was planning to stop by ThreadsZoo for that Trendy Confessions thing at Cap Square but it didn't work out cause my mum forgot all about it and we had to pick up my mum's old family friend who'd be spending the night here.
Hmm (: I hope I get ideas for the shirt!
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